facing my fears

I am TERRIFIED of spiders... All thanks to a nursery worker at church when I was about 2 yrs old. I have a vivid memory of asking for help with my pony-tail-holder when a black spider crawled up the  curve of the rocker she was sitting in. She screamed and jumped up so fast that it scared me to death. Ever since, I have smashed every spider I have ever seen... until this week. My magnolia trees are spider hotels! I think it has something to do with the fact that the blooms are full of little places to hide and lots of insects frequent the area. So far, I have only seen these two, and they both made me jump, but with the camera between us, I feel a bit safer. Hopefully, by making my self photograph them, I will be able to over come my fear.... a little bit!